The
days go on so quickly. The hours and minutes and moments all pass by before my
very eyes. It feels like just yesterday I was six years old, swinging so high
on our swing set that I thought I could reach the clouds. Now my own daughter
is six years old and I am thirty. If I blink again, I’ll be 50 and at her
wedding.
I
live in these moments with you, sweet girl, and often forget that if I don’t
write about them, then you won’t remember when I tell you a funny story about
yourself one day. Or maybe you will, but we live in an age where we have the
technology to document everything and baby girl, that’s what I am doing. Others
sometimes criticize me for posting so much about our life together. They say
that they enjoy their private lives. Well, that’s fine. They can enjoy their
private lives just like we do, but some of those funny moments we share
together, I want to read in thirty years together and laugh.
Well,
you started school this past September. It’s only half day so it’s not the
greatest in the world. I feel like you say you “hate school” not because you
actually hate it but because it’s just not long enough. As soon as you get
there, it’s time to come home again. Some things that I have loved in the past
four months:
1 -You read to me like crazy. You
read and write and count and add and subtract and I love it and it amazes me
and you’re so, SO smart baby. I couldn’t be more proud.
2
-You
LISTEN. While other kids don’t listen to their Mommy’s and Daddy’s and throw
fits and lie, you don’t do any of those things. Sometimes you don’t necessarily
like what I’m asking you to do, but you do it and you get over it and that’s
that. I ask you to clean your room, and you do it. I ask you to help me with
something, and you do it. You don’t ask questions when I ask you to do
something. You don’t have a meltdown and cry. You’re just awesome Nina. All except
for food- you don’t try new things AT ALL. Not too long ago I decided to have a
food party where I make different goodie bags as prizes if you taste something
new and you FREAKED OUT. It was a complete disaster. I thought for sure it
would be a fun way for you to try new things but your will baby. You’ve got a
strong one. Stubborn just like your Daddy. But since I just wrote about him, I
also must write that you love him dearly. You are 100∞ a “Daddy’s Girl.” It’s
nice when he spends time here or I go there and I see you guys interacting with
each other. I don’t know your minute-to-minute life when you’re with your Dad,
so when I see you guys together and laughing, my heart is complete. I know when
you aren’t with me, you’re happy and that he makes you happy and that is all I
ever want in this life.
3
-I joined
the PTO and became the classroom Mom for your Kindergarten class. Ten years ago
I never would have though that this would be my life and that this would be the
best time in my life. It’s amazing how we grow as humans. I got to know all the
kids in your class and some of the parents and it makes me feel at ease knowing
I can come and go from the school whenever I want and I get to come in and do
some pretty cool crafts and stuff with you and your friends. We went to your
first school dance together. I dressed up as SpongeBob. Not because I wanted
to, but because you asked me to. And well, who could say no to someone as sweet
as you? You dressed up as Elsa from Frozen and oh MY LORD NINA, I hope you
remember that you were obsessed with Frozen like every other little kid in the
world. There were 27 Elsa’s at your school dance. I, of course, was one of the
only parents dressed as anything and I was a huge square. I didn’t care because
I had a BLAST with you and your friends. We all held hands and danced around.
It was a great night and I know you’ll remember that one.
4 -I went on
your class field trip with you to Lee’s Turkey Farm. I also made a request that
you have your little boy crush be in our group and guess what? He was in our
group. I played with you all on the playground and ran up and down castles and
slides and swings while all the other parents just kind of sat around. I
realized that you bring out the kid in me again and things that used to feel
sad to me, like Christmas and Thanksgiving became something so exciting to me
again. I think I’m more excited for the Holidays as a parent than I was when I
was a kid. Seeing your face light up…. Brings tears to my eyes just imagining
it. Also, on that trip we picked little pumpkins. When we got back to the
school, we walked through the hallways back to your classroom and a little girl
in your class dropped hers. She started crying so hard and you went up to her
and gave her your pumpkin and told her it’s okay. Even typing that makes me
cry. Yeah, I know…. I’m a big baby. You have such a huge heart in that little
body of yours. Being your Mom is the best part of my life.
5
-Back to
that crush thing…. NINA AND RONAL SITTIN’ IN THE TREE K-I-S-S-I-N-G! His name
is Ronal, not Ronald which you’ve yelled at me for numerous times. It’s really,
really REALLY cute. You guys take the bus home together and every time I get
you from the bus, you say bye to him a few times and have this kiddy love look
on your face. You admitted to me last week that you guys hold hands on the bus
on the way home. You said, “I don’t know why Roanal holds my hand on the bus,
but I let him.” It’s cute now, but in ten years I’ll let your Daddy deal with
the boys. Something tells me, he will interrogate every boy in your life to the
point of embarrassment. Rightfully so. If any little shit bag boy breaks your
heart, I’m going to ruin his world. Swear jar… I know. I’ll put it in there
when I’m done writing this.
6
-You
ACCIDENTALLY lost your first tooth. It must have been loose but you sure yanked
that thing out even though it probably wasn’t ready. I got you one of those
prizes from the machine you put 50¢ in and you were trying to push it up and
open with your bottom teeth. You got it open and your tooth came with it! Nina,
you cried SO hard you fell asleep in the car. Then you refused to live without
a paper towel in your mouth (the feeling of your tongue hitting the hole where
your tooth used to be really freaked you out) and then when I told you that you
had to take the paper towel out, you freaked out some more but by that time it
was bedtime and you just fell asleep. It broke my heart but it was kind of
funny at the same time. Every time we walk past those machines now, you walk a
little faster. Also, the tooth fairy left you 5 bucks. She didn’t want to set
the bar too high.
Since
this is getting lengthy, I will divide it in to two parts. Next on the blog
agenda: Mémère comes to visit, Grandpa Avallone, the Holidays, and your
girlfriends. I love you sweet girl. You are my light and my life and I love you
to the moon, the stars, and the heavens and back.
Mom
