Today I watched you sleep for a while. I don't remember the last time I did that. It is such a beautiful feeling to watch a child you brought in to this world so at peace with it. It kind of breaks my heart to know that one day you will grow up and know that this world is not so peaceful. I wish you could stay young and naive forever. Then you would never know any pain other than Mommy not giving you another cookie. Things are going to break your heart baby girl. Such a thing is inevitable in anyone's life. But I want you to know that nothing is bad forever. Life is full of ups and downs and twists and turns and although you may feel like your world is crashing down; that your heart was just stampeded on; it will always get better. I promise.
You are my world Nina. I didn't know it when I was pregnant. You weren't even real to me until I saw you. You made me a Mother and you have given me more love in my heart than anyone in this world. Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing a good enough job and in my heart I know I can do better. I promise to do better by you, to teach you, to be patient, to put you above all else in this world, to pick you up when you fall down, and to love you unconditionally all the days that I am breathing.
Tomorrow when you wake up, crawl out of your little toddler bed, and come running out to me saying, "Hi Mommy," I am going to scoop you up and kiss you until you get annoyed with me. Which will probably be two seconds in. Two seconds of kissing Nina? I'll take it.
"When you feel like nothing ever goes your way, look at the smile on your child's face. It can brighten up any dark day." - Me
Your Loving Mother
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